I was finally able to sleep a little! I took a nap for about 40 minutes. Unfortunately, I woke up incredibly nauseous. Ugh. Also, my hand still hurts.
Daily Archives: May 29, 2014
I can’t even think of a title…
I still haven’t been able to eat anything.
I am getting some water down, and I remembered to take my meds today, which is good.
I couldn’t sleep at all last night, so I got up at 6am after trying for hours to sleep. I had been wanting to cut, this seems to come up more when I’m sleep deprived, so I grabbed a coloring book and my colored pencils and colored for a bit while I listened to The Wonder Years on Netflix.
After everyone else woke up, I went and used my bike until I thought I couldn’t pedal anymore, and then made myself keep going. Afterward I took a shower. It’s a good thing there’s a bench in my shower, or I wouldn’t have made it, my legs were like liquid.
I have taken both weight loss pills and laxatives today, but I’m feeling pretty good.
On a positive note, I told a friend about my ride situation and she offered to take me to my behavioral health appointment in the morning. I’m very relieved. I know that I need to go tomorrow, and if I had to reschedule, I’m not sure I’d work up the strength to go.
In other news, my x-rays are scheduled for next Thursday to see whether or not I have rheumatoid arthritis. I’m looking forward to that just so I can find out one way or the other.
I need to study today. I’m scared of failing my classes. I just can’t seem to get myself to actually do it. I also want to exercise again before I go to bed. Hopefully I can actually sleep tonight.
I feel like there’s more I want to write, more I want to express, but I can’t seem to actually form it into anything.
I have learned a valuable lesson
Apparently, when I take diet pills that have the caffeine equivalent of 6 cups of coffee, I can’t sleep.
I didn’t get ANY sleep last night.
I just shat myself
Accomplishment!
It’s assembled!
I didn’t do it. I convinced my daddy to.
I still haven’t eaten today. I did get some water down. I then used my bike until my legs turned to jello (didn’t take nearly as long as I’d hoped), took some laxatives, and collapsed in bed.
That’s where I am now. I shall spend the rest of the night watching Netflix, probably The Wonder Years, until I get sleepy.
Have a good night!