I’ve had this blog for a couple months now and haven’t added an about page yet. This wasn’t an oversight, I just didn’t know what I wanted to put here. However, I realized today, while surfing other people’s blogs, that I like to read the about pages for other bloggers, so I should provide them the same courtesy.
I’m a single, 31 year old woman living in the United States. I have had an eating disorder for over 23 years. I have run the gamut of eating disorders from anorexia to binge eating disorder and everywhere in between, and currently am battling (or lying in bed with) bulimia.
I recently finished 4 months of treatment at a local eating disorder clinic starting in the hospital, then partial hospitalization, and finally intensive outpatient, but my insurance cut out last week. Despite the 4 months of treatment, I’m not doing well and am kind of in recovery limbo. I like the idea of recovery and being recovered, but I’m not actively working toward it. Part of me wants recovery and part of me doesn’t, and they war constantly.
I have chronic migraine, fibromyalgia, IBS, hypothyroidism, osteoarthritis, depression, struggle with self-harm and suicidal ideation, body dysmorphic disorder, anxiety, bipolar 2, and was recently diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis. (Wow, that’s the first time I’ve ever written that all out in one place.) I also have a variety of symptoms that haven’t been figured out yet.
I blog here to help my sanity, and I blog honestly and often with raw emotion. This is one of the few places I feel comfortable being myself and being honest. Writing here helps me figure things out, release negative emotions, and get out some of the secrets that keep me bound within myself.
I write about whatever I feel like in the moment, but the overarching theme is definitely mental illness and my struggles with bulimia.