Remember how I threw out ALL my food? Yeah, well, I wanted to binge and purge, so I took food out of the trash and ate it. Because, you know, bulimia makes you do crazy things like eating food out of your trash can. I should have sabotaged it, like pouring soap over it or something so it was inedible. I did sabotage the rest of it afterward, but by then I had already binged and purged on a bunch of food from my trash. There’s nothing like eating food from your trash can to make you feel really crazy and desperate.
Sep21
All I can say is sending you hugs and the struggle is real.
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Thank you
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I love this!
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I hope it would make u smile a little.
If it did, my job is done!
~bridgette 😀
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It did, thank you!
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I’ve done that before. Bulimia sucks!
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I don’t know whether to say “I’m sorry” or “Yay, I’m not alone!”
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LoL, it’s okay. It is what it is and it was a lifetime ago
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I did this many years ago. You may feel at rock bottom, but it will get easier. Just keep believing that. Bug hugs xxx
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Been there:-) It was recent, this past January.. and I ate day-old pizza that had been sitting in the garbage overnight. And, NOT MY GARBAGE, rather the people who’s mother I was taking care of at the time. Yeah, that was gross. I didn’t even bother to reheat it (which might have made the cheese at least soft??). My worst was about 18 yrs ago.. I was starving (bulimorexic at that time) and binged on a bag of DOG TREATS as I drove madly to the grocery store. That was some **sawdust MAGIC** right there.
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This is one of those things that more people have done than you realize. You might not remember the Seinfeld episode where George plucks an eclair out of the trash….
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I’ve never seen Seifeld, so no. But thanks for the reassurance.
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I assumed you were too young…
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Oh darling, I have put food in garbage bags and put the garbage bags in the bins outside my apartment and then a few hours later gone outside IN PUBLIC and fished my garbage out of the bins. And of course, ate the food. I had put only food in the garbage bags and not any other trash, but I am so embarrassed to write that. Yet it’s so funny at the same time.
Good for you for throwing away and sabotaging the food! I grew up in a household where throwing away food was sacrilegious and at first I couldn’t do it. Then I realized all the food was going to end up on my butt and thighs and then the garbage didn’t seem like such a bad idea.
xoxo,
K
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I put soup on my garlic bread last night, soaked it, and threw it in the trash. If I hadn’t done that, we’d be writing similar posts today!
Hugs, here when you need it!
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xx been there too xx you’re not alone xx I’ve also binged on dog treats! its not our fault, and I hope you can be kind to yourself xx Em
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