A while ago I wrote that I was trying to get into a year-long DBT program through the mental health clinic where I’m seen. Well, I just found out I was accepted into the program! I’m relieved, and a little anxious. But mostly relieved. I really think this will be good for me.
Day #14: Share a fear you overcame.
Nothing comes to mind. I spent the better part of 15 minutes trying to think of something, but couldn’t.
After seeing the scale just now, being up all night dealing with a laxative overdose was worth it.
The semicolon project is very popular right now. I was thinking about it and if people are getting tattoos to remind themselves to stay alive, maybe what I need is a tattoo to remind myself not to do stupid things. Maybe a nice one on my wrist that says “Don’t do anything stupid today.” Just getting through today without doing anything stupid should be an attainable goal, right?
I say this after a day where I first threw out ALL my food because I was afraid of it, then ate food from my trash can, then purged, then freaked out about eating food and took a handful of laxatives and is now up all night dealing with the effects of the laxative taking (nausea, severe cramping, vomiting, etc).
So maybe if I had seen “Don’t do anything stupid today” on my wrist at some point during the day, I would have stopped and thought and processed and NOT done something that I did today. Maybe?
**Note** I’m not actually considering getting this tattoo, you don’t have to tell me it’s a bad idea.
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