Daily Archives: September 22, 2015

I got in!

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A while ago I wrote that I was trying to get into a year-long DBT program through the mental health clinic where I’m seen. Well, I just found out I was accepted into the program! I’m relieved, and a little anxious. But mostly relieved. I really think this will be good for me.

LoveMe Challenge, Day 14

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Day #14: Share a fear you overcame.

Nothing comes to mind. I spent the better part of 15 minutes trying to think of something, but couldn’t.

Even if it’s just dehydration

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After seeing the scale just now, being up all night dealing with a laxative overdose was worth it.

Don’t do stupid things

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The semicolon project is very popular right now. I was thinking about it and if people are getting tattoos to remind themselves to stay alive, maybe what I need is a tattoo to remind myself not to do stupid things. Maybe a nice one on my wrist that says “Don’t do anything stupid today.” Just getting through today without doing anything stupid should be an attainable goal, right?

I say this after a day where I first threw out ALL my food because I was afraid of it, then ate food  from my trash can, then purged, then freaked out about eating food and took a handful of laxatives and is now up all night dealing with the effects of the laxative taking (nausea, severe cramping, vomiting, etc). 

So maybe if I had seen “Don’t do anything stupid today” on my wrist at some point during the day, I would have stopped and thought and processed and NOT done something that I did today. Maybe?

**Note** I’m not actually considering getting this tattoo, you don’t have to tell me it’s a bad idea.