Self-consciousness

A friend texted me and asked if I wanted to come spend a day or so with her while she house sits later this week. 

I love this friend, but she is also bulimic, except she’s the bulimic I can’t seem to be. She’s tiny. She binges and purges all the time and looks anorexic. This is something I’ve never been able to accomplish. Even when I don’t eat and exercise all day I stay fat. 

The last few weeks since getting my wisdom teeth pulled, I haven’t been purging (until the last couple days) and I ran out of laxatives so I am full of feces. I’ve been sick and experiencing a really bad fibro flare up so I’ve hardly exercised. I’m afraid to weigh myself, but I know I’ve gained a lot. 

I told my friend I was too gargantuan to visi. 

I wish my desire to be with friends weren’t outweighed by my fear of them seeing my expanding body. 

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Another update and a shopping spree

I took my kitty to the vet today. She said that overall my cat seems to be in great health. I got so many comments on how sweet and friendly she is. The vet said my cat was diagnosed with idiopathic epilepsy.

While I’m relieved that it wasn’t something like cancer or brain damage or liver disease, I’m still very sad and worried about my poor kitty.

When I got done at the vet, I had an email that I had an Amazon gift card available from filling out a survey a couple weeks ago. Yay!

I bought an arm band to put my phone in while I’m out walking/running and some laxatives. I haven’t had laxatives for about a month and I have pooped maybe twice in that time. Blech!

Also, over two weeks after having my wisdom teeth pulled, my mouth is still in a lot of pain. I see the dentist again in the morning, we’ll see what he says.

The removal

So, as I mentioned briefly, I went to the dentist Wednesday afternoon. I was expecting to have them check my teeth, maybe clean them, and then schedule another appointment for any work that needed to be done. Nope!

I went in and they took about 20 x-rays of my mouth. No exaggeration. Then the dentist came in and poked around my teeth and told his assistant which teeth needed what. I lost count, but I think I had around 10 cavities. This was no surprise to me. Then, he tells me I should have had my wisdom teeth out and asks if I want him to do that. I said yes.

So, he gave me 6 shots in my gums and leaves me for a few minutes to let it work its magic. I was freezing. I forgot how medical offices are always freezing and I was wearing a strapless summer dress. I don’t know if it was the cold, the nerves, the meds, or some combination of these (or something else) but I was shaking the entire 3-hour appointment.

When he came back, the dentist drilled out my cavities. I had to get 2 more shots partway through because the stuff they were injecting wasn’t working like it’s supposed to. After he finished, his assistant did my fillings. When she finished, the dentist came back and cleaned my teeth. believe it or not, that was the most painful part of the whole appointment. After the cleaning, I got 6 more shots and he proceeded to pull out my wisdom teeth.

That, crazily enough, was the least painful part of the whole appointment. However, the sounds were horrible. It sounded like they were breaking my bones. When he was finished removing all four wisdom teeth, I was released to the bathroom to wash up. I had blood all over my face and neck. Lovely.

So, what I had thought would be a 30 minute appointment turned into 180 minutes, 10 fillings, 1 cleaning, and 4 extractions.

While I wasn’t expecting that, I’m glad to have it done and over with. I’m glad I don’t need to go back for six months and that they didn’t have to pull all my teeth out. I’m glad the only teeth that needed pulled were my wisdom teeth.

The dentist said that after I heal, having my wisdom teeth gone should help with the earaches and migraines.

On Wednesday, I didn’t eat before going in and I couldn’t eat after, so I didn’t have any food on Wednesday. Yesterday, I was allowed broth and tea. I had a couple cups of broth throughout the day. Today, I could have soft foods/liquids, so I had some soup and applesauce.

I haven’t slept well in the last couple nights. I keep waking in extreme pain. Also, my whole body seemed to not handle the appointment/extraction well and I’ve been achier and more fatigued than normal. I wonder if that’s a Fibro thing.

Tomorrow is still soft foods and liquids, and then it’s whatever I can tolerate. I do have to rinse my mouth with warm salt water every 6 hours. Woooh!

I haven’t worked out in the last couple days because of how miserable I’ve been, but I’m hoping to tomorrow. Somehow, even without eating for 2 days, I still gained weight. This is just ridiculous. So, I need to get back on track.

Wish me luck. I need a speedy recovery.