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Grief, Vulnerability, and Shame


Today, I watched these two videos that my therapist assigned me to watch. They’re long, but if you haven’t seen them yet, I highly recommend them.

After finishing the video on shame, which I cried through, I felt ready to finally work on some grief work I’ve been putting off.

The first assignment was to make a Mad/Sad/Scared/Glad list about my sister’s death. It was hard, but good. Here’s that list.

  • I’m sad that you’re not here anymore.
  • I’m sad you won’t be at my wedding.
  • I’m sad the kids are no longer a part of my life.
  • I’m sad you will miss out on all future holidays.
  • I’m sad you don’t get to hear our jokes and know our stories.
  • I’m sad for all the “missed” time with you.
  • I’m sad we’ll never get to go to another movie, you’ll never recommend another book, and never suck me into another game.
  • I’m sad we can’t have girl’s nights.
  • I’m sad all 7 siblings will never be together again.
  • I’m sad my future family will never get to know you.
  • I’m mad God let you die.
  • I’m mad I couldn’t change it.
  • I’m mad when I don’t think of you.
  • I’m scared to feel the grief.
  • I’m scared to let go of you.
  • I’m scared of accepting that you’re gone forever.
  • I’m scared of what it means to have a future without you.
  • I’m glad you’re in heaven enjoying yourself.
  • I’m glad you’re with your Savior.
    I miss you.