You know you’re bulimic when…

While browsing the web, I came across a list titled “You know You’re Bulimic When…” that several people had contributed to. I copied the ones that resonated with me.

• You can’t walk past the laxative aisle without wanting to binge. (Or wanting to pick up a ton)
• When you know you’ll have time alone and plan out a huge binge, and feel happy about this.
• When you tell yourself that your meal is healthy enough, or that you won’t eat enough to trigger you and still end up back at the toilet.
• When you look at foods and sum up how easy they’d be to purge on a scale of super easy to jeez I don’t want to do this (and usually do anyhow)
• When you are jealous of anorexics
• When you are doing good at restricting yourself from food completely, but then you eat…and keep eating.
• When you binge and purge instead of sleep. (all the time)
• When you feel so so exhausted after a day of not doing nothing but eating and throwing up.
• When you count the hours until your laxatives kick in
• You have a separate section on your grocery lists for b/p foods
• When you weigh yourself everyday and let that decide how much you are allowed to eat
• Having people tell you you’re wasting food and money  (thanks, mom)
• Any feeling of fullness in your stomach sets off the need to purge.
• When you eat healthy and still feel the need to purge
• Getting excited to binge and purge

And here are some of my own:

• The cashiers at the local grocery stores know you, and you worry about whether they take notice of how much food you buy…all the time.
• You argue with yourself over whether to pay rent or buy binge food.
• You throw away extra binge food to try to keep yourself from binging the next day.
• You end up just buying more binge food the next day anyway.
• Trying to follow your meal plan triggers binging and purging
• Not eating triggers binging and purging
• Binging and purging triggers binging and purging
• Pretty much <insert anything here> triggers binging and purging
• You avoid certain foods because of the way they taste the second time around
• You can binge on thousands of calories worth of food, but eating a normal meal or snack makes you cry.

I could probably keep going for the next hour.