My laxatives came in the mail today. Woooh!
As I was opening the package, I realized that I always order from teh same place because it’s the cheapest I’ve found. I wonder if they wonder why someone needs so many laxatives, so often. I wonder if they suspect. I wonder if they think I’m chronically constipated.
I’m glad to have the relative anonymity of purchasing online.
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These are all examples of ways you could answer this question. Me? “Uhh….eat…and then throw up?”
Last year, before my relapse, I signed up for a dating site on a whim, and then accidentally paid for a whole year (because, you know, who reads the fine print?).
I don’t ever go on the site, but once in a while, someone will start talking to me. I get this question a lot. Every time, I think I should just be honest so they can get scared and run away instead of feeling hurt by someone who’s not interested in them.
I was thinking about this today because I’m home alone, which I’ve mentioned doesn’t happen very often. And not just for a few hours either, but for the whole day. My first thought in these situations is always to binge and purge. I start planning it out. What I will eat, in what order. How long this or that takes to cook/bake, so when I need to start it and what I can eat while I’m waiting for it to finish. It’s pretty ridiculous.
Never tead the comments section of online articles. Especially ones about mental illness.