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I’m helping



It amazes me how many times people do or say something that they think is profound or helpful when it’s really not.

I was scrolling through my Facebook news feed and saw this:



Screenshot_2014-11-04-00-44-46-1I kknow so many people think this is fantastic. “Oh, if I just wear a shirt that tells strangers that they’re needed, instead of investing any time in their lives, and despite whether anyone in that person’s life treats them like they matter, I can save a life!”

I won’t say that CAN’T happen, but I will say it’s unlikely.


This is how someone who is in that position is likely to take such a shirt:

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You see, a flippant remark on a t-shirt by a stranger is highly unlikely to “convince” someone to not be suicidal. I think it also shows an ignorance of suicide. It’s not like someone just “feels” suicidal because they “think” the world doesn’t need them. It’s so much more complex than that. Suicide will never be solved with a “happy thought” or a phrase printed on a t-shirt directed at anyone and everyone. 




“I’m helping”


My ex (we were together for two and a half years) has taken to sending me pictures of the food he’s eating. The picture above is the most recent.

I’m not sure what his reason is. He knows I’m struggling, so I think it might be his way of trying to help. Like a “look, I’m eating, you can too!” But I honestly just don’t want to talk about food or what I’m eating, so I usually just ask him if he enjoyed it, or change the subject.

Today was long and rough. I haven’t exercised today and I don’t know if I will tonight. I am utterly exhausted. I took a 3 hour nap earlier and didn’t want to get up after. I may go to bed soon.

I didn’t hear from the eating disorder clinic today like I was supposed to. I left a message this afternoon and didn’t hear back. *sigh*

Tomorrow morning is my rescheduled meeting with the behavioral health guy. I’m debating whether I should tell him the disturbing thoughts that have been rattling around in my brain.

I think I’ll go lie down now.