I started intensive outpatient yesterday. This means doing 2 meals at home. However, I’m on disability and hardly get enough money to cover bills, let alone money to buy food. In shame, I told my dietitian this. She then took me to a food bank. It was an overwhelming experience. It was filled with fear foods, which were handed to me whether I wanted them or not. On top of that, while waiting for my turn to go through the line, the man at my table kept talking about being too fat and how he wouldn’t eat the bread because he didn’t want to gain more weight and so forth.
I now have food to last a while, minus protein, though I do have a whole frozen chicken in my freezer. I feel like an awful person for taking all this free food that I don’t want in the first place. I don’t want to eat it and I don’t want it in my house. How awful am I that I took food from someone who wanted it when I don’t even want this food??
Well, it’s happened. My weight is up today. No food for me.
I ate today.
I went to the zoo for several hours today with my sister and her 17 month old twins. We walked around the whole time, minus about 20 minutes when we stopped to feed the kids lunch. I had so much fun with them.
After, we went back to my sister’s and she put them down for a late nap. Then, she made herself and me food. A salad with chicken. I didn’t want to explain that I wasn’t eating, and I had just walked over 10 miles (thank you, phone GPS) so I ate the salad. I’ll punish myself for it later. I may also get in a real workout too to make up for it.
Overall, though, I had a great day. I adore my niece and nephew and I had a blast with them at the zoo.
I left treatment last night. Now I feel lost and sad and overwhelmed and unsure what direction I want to go. I’m making breakfast, but I don’t know if I’ll do 3 meals and 3 snacks. I kind of really want to restrict.
A friend posted a random New Year resolution generator on Facebook. This is what I got.
(If you are curious, you can get one here)
I found this neat site called Eat This Much. You can tell it how many calories you want to eat over how many total meals during the day, and it will give you a meal plan for the day. You can edit what types of foods it will suggest, follow certain diets like vegetarian, paleo, etc, tell it how many (or what percentage) carbs, fats, and proteins you want, and more. It’s really quite a useful site.
There’s only one small problem.
How do I get three-quarters of the egg white and the yolk? I’m also not sure how to measure a quarter of a tablespoon.
How on earth am I supposed to measure 0.17 tablespoon, 0.17 cup, or 0.67 of an egg?
0.13 of everything?
0.04 of a cup? Then you have 0.17 of almost everything else.
I love this site in theory. I really want to be able to use it. However, I can’t find a way to make it give me measurements that make logic.
I thought the strange measurements might have been just because I was requesting an unrealistic amount of calories per day. However, when I switched to the standard 2000 calories, it didn’t help any.
Yes, it wants me to add 0.13 cup of low fat milk to this recipe.