Drinking my first Ensure. I wish it didn’t list the calories on the front of the bottle. And don’t look at the ingredients, because it’s essentially sugar water. Just thinking about this if freaking me out, so I’m going to play a game while I drink it so hopefully I won’t think about it as much.
I just got home from my doctor appointment. I got all the labs and tests the eating disorder center want, plus a few my doctor wanted. She also wants me to start drinking 2 ensures a day. And keeping them down, she added after a couple seconds.
Inside I’m freaking out, but I know I need to be willing to do what I’m told is in my best interest if I’m ever going to recover. If I can’t even drink ensure, I’ll never be able to eat 3 meals. So I will try.
I’ll start with one a day, and try to work my way up. Facing my fears.