It’s been almost a year since I posted last. I was in school, doing my pre-reqs for nursing during most of that time. That ended mid-September. I had been deep in my eating disorder for several months and my outpatient team decided they couldn’t treat me anymore, I needed a higher level of care. By the time I went to get my medical clearance for treatment, I was severely dehydrated, anemic, had low potassium, had a Mallory Weiss tear, and my liver and kidneys were starting to fail.
Until I received the news from my medical clearance, I had thought I was impervious to complications from my eating disorder. Yes, I’ve had chronic low potassium and anemia, but I thought that was the extent to which I would be affected. To hear that my liver and kidneys were failing was a cold splash of water on my face, a cruel wakeup call.
I admitted to a local partial hospitalization program on October 4th. It’s a 7-day-a-week, 10-hour-a-day program. It’s intense and challenging. I’ve been in it for 8 weeks now and I’m making progress. Before going back to treatment I was purging up to 26 times a day. Now I’ve gone 2 weeks without purging. I will probably move to their intensive outpatient program in a couple weeks. That starts out at 7 days a week from 10-3:30, then 5 days a week, then finally 3 days. I’m both looking forward to and nervous to transition. I know slips are a normal part of recovery, but I’m so scared of falling back into my old habits. I really want recovery to stick this time.
I would write more but it’s almost 2am and I have to be up in about 4 hours so I will try to sleep now.
Thank you for reading this and I hope you have a great day.
Your last post then such a long gap was scary, your title had answered a question I’d been wondering for some time! I’m glad to hear that things are looking better for you now ☺
LikeLiked by 2 people
That’s what I was afraid of, that’s why I made that my title. And thank you.
LikeLiked by 1 person
I wish the best for you. You can always email me. My email is rayette.rucker23@gmail.com
Ray
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thank you
LikeLike
So glad to see you here!! I’ve thought of you many times over the past year. Xx
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thank you for thinking of me.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Never stopped. Xx
LikeLiked by 1 person
Take good care of yourself Dear. Hope you get better and better. xxx
LikeLiked by 1 person
U will not die just like that. Happy for you
LikeLiked by 1 person