“Women don’t eat, they just stare at it and then jump on the treadmill.”
-Lorelai Gilmore
I’m going to try a new plan: when I feel like binging and purging, I’m going to hop on my stationary bike instead until, hopefully, the urge passes. I don’t know if my plan will work, but I need to try something.
a2eternity 
you could also go out walking after eating , walking is the best way to lose weight it’s better than running, you will be out in your community plus walking lifts depression, you just need to make sure your iron status is good – iron gives you the stamina
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I wish you luck. It is good to try different strategies.I’m so glad I stopped taking laxatives in 2009. It was tough going but I won’t look back. I do struggle a lot with my own eating habits and excersise has helped me. It did take a while to get a balance. x
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Trying to remember what was helpful for me but honestly I physically couldn’t purge anymore, maybe that happens as you get older. I wrote A LOT! I emailed my T A LOT! Not about food and wanting to b/p but about terrible awful stuff. You have been through A LOT, so much loss and sadness that is difficult to express. Finding a new way to “purge” all that badness isn’t easy. Are you still creating your art? You are super talented and artistic…possibly you could utilize you art. I am thinking your body is tired. I once told my T that I couldn’t distinguish hunger, sleepy, tired, bingey, wanting cuddled…She smiled and said YES, but you know that you need nourished in some way. Usually I am honestly tired (maybe a bit hungry but if I treat my body with kindness the bingey feelings go away).
I think of you often and you will get through this ❤
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Not a bad idea! Just stay hydrated!
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I hope you’re doing okay. X
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I like the idea of “purging on paper” so to speak. Feel like binging? Write, scream it all out… feel like purging? Same thing. That’s what I do. I used to try and deal with stuff through exercise but then found out I was still purging, just doing it by over exercising. I did it so much my body broke and now I’m stuck with another chronic pain dx- oh joy, not.
It’s so hard to decipher what’s going on some times so I absolutely hear your frustration. I was really into puzzles for awhile; you know – real puzzles requiring a table and everything. I couldn’t believe how focusing on dividing all the prices and such relaxed me. Hmmm, I think I’ll start doing that again. I’ve had a lot of anxiety lately. I’m so glad you posted about this you really helped me.
I also color, both those things helped in the past. Tomorrow I’m clearing my table and bringing both those out since it’s pretty much anxiety till January, lol.
Actually, there was this one time when I was really angry and depressed at the same time. Normally I would have used some variation of the ED to deal with it but instead I took a page out of one of my coloring books then colored using all reds, purples, browns and blacks. I didn’t stop till I was done and felt so much better. It took a couple hours. I dons lot of color layering with pencils, etc. The more involving, the less I’m focused on my crazy insides.
Hope you find what works for you! 💕
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