With the exception of while I was at my eye exam, I spent the whole day binging and purging, as has become my norm. My last purge was especially violent and I feel weak and shaky and too tired to keep binging and purging, even though I have a few more hours left in the day to pass. I don’t want to not binge and purge. When I’m not binging and purging, I start thinking about my ex and I start feeling and I can’t handle it and I start feeling suicidal. I just want to stay numb.
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*hugs* That sounds really exhausting 😦 I wish I had some words of advice 😦 When do you see your therapist next ?
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I see my psychiatrist tomorrow. I don’t know when I see my therapist next, she was booked for a few weeks out, the receptionist sent her an email trying to get me an appointment. But seeing my psychiatrist tomorrow will help.
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I hope and pray that your Tuesday visit will be helpful. Hang in there; you have a lot of us pulling for you!
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sad and worrying post , is there a nice park or natural beauty spot where you could go and sit for an hour or so or a dogs home where you could take a homeless dog out walking – you seem to have a nurturing side which has no outlet atm
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I have been where you are and it’s an awful and scary place to be. It’s about the worst way in the world to feel. Possibly your psych could admit you to a medical floor just to help you break the cycle. Really it takes being safe from yourself bc right now your mind just won’t let you do it. Could you stay with family or friends just to get away from your house?
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I don’t want to “like” this because that sounds, I don’t know, like the wrong word. I don’t like that you’re going through this and I wish there was something more that I could do to help. Whatever the next step is, you have support.
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babe i’m sorry ur passing through that shit 😳 what can i do for helping u? i understand ur thoghts and feelings so bad cuz i have buimia too, with the risk to sound like a mom i will recomend u to feel the pain about ur ex, trust: you are so fucking strong!!! don’t let your ed tell you the opposite, by the way… do you know the recoverywarriors web? maybe can help u. kisses and hugs gorgeous.
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