I know last time I posted I was quite distraught. That didn’t last long, but I haven’t felt inspired to write in the last couple weeks. In fact, I haven’t been inspired to do much of anything lately. I have been extremely apathetic and bored and nothing is catching my interest. My psychiatrist has been adjusting my meds and I wonder if this isn’t a side effect of that.
In the time since my last post, I had a birthday. I’m pretty sure I officially qualify as old now.
I’ve been struggling to eat. The fiancé and I have been wedding planning and all I can think of is me standing in front of all my friends and family being fat and everyone looking at me. It makes eating hard. I feel like I need to lose as much weight as possible before the wedding.
a2eternity 
You will be gorgeous. You will be a happy bride marrying the love of her life, and that’s the most important part.
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You don’t need to lose any weight, your family and friends are there to share a beautiful moment with you, and you are and will be perfect just the way you are ❤️
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Hey dear. Weddings tend to make self-image and eating-related disorders/struggles a lot worse. Please try your best to take care of yourself.
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! (from the old 45 year old Deafie in Finland) xx
As for the mood swings, I can almost, 100%, tell you that the medication changes will be responsible. Every time mine are changed….. well, let’s just say it makes PMS look like a sleeping kitten. Once they find the right meds and dosages, you will be back on track.
I am excited about the wedding, and know that no matter what, you will be the most beautiful and radiant person there. In time, you will be able to tame the monster in your head that tells you differently. Try to enjoy the ride to becoming a married-chickie and let yourself be pampered 🙂
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Thank you so much!
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As Rosie just said – enjoy the ride. This is a big turn in anyone’s life. Don’t let worry rob you of the day.
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You’re going to be gorgeous – because what people will remember is how radiant you look. How happy. Focus on your groom and the rest will all fit.
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You will be and feel beautiful! Enjoy your day, dance with the one you love and laugh and hug all who will share the day with you.
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