I had to give up my scale today. I cried when I walked past the spot where it normally sits. I miss my scale. It’s so hard not weighing myself obsessively. It’s so hard not knowing that number. It’s so hard giving up that control. Imagine the song below is a song to my scale.
I miss my scale so much, and it’s only been gone less than a day. I might do some art around this. My scale really is the voice inside my head. It dictates so much about how my day will go, how I will eat, how my mood will be, how much I will exercise, etc. I feel lost without it.
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Well done! Great decision even if it doesn’t feel like it now!
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Don’t worry about it! I’ve been following your journey for a while, and I can tell you have so much courage!! I’m proud of you for making that change 🙂
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Thank you! I’m trying not to worry about it, but it’s so hard!
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Good for you!! I’m so impressed and inspired by your courage. Keep fighting!
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Thank you
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Wow, great job! I know you must be feeling like you’re going crazy right now, but if you stick with it, I promise it will get easier.😊
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That’s a really big step to take. Well done. I’m praying for you especially that this Easter bring you renewed strength and hope and above all, deep knowledge that you are loved.xx
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Well done! Very hard letting go. You continue to show the strength I saw in you from the start. You have the heart of a hero. The thing is, heroes never see that in themselves. They certainly don’t feel like heroes in the midst of struggle. Try a posting of mine about heroes: https://jeffreyhking.wordpress.com/2014/11/26/heroes/
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Think of the satisfaction you felt destroying your butterfly. Now think of the same satisfaction you can feel as you again freed yourself of another part of your eating disorder. Was it a good loss or a bad loss? If it was controlling your life, then getting rid of it makes it a good loss in my book. I am proud of you for taking that step. Not easy. But you did it!
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It’s probably technically good, but it feels terrible.
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I know it does. I know. We are here for you.
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I gave up my scale for Lent once. LOL It DOES get easier – your life fills in the hole and will cover the space where the scale was.
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I gave up mine years ago.
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