The other night I had an ice cream sandwich. I immediately felt the urge to cut. I felt like I deserved to be punished for eating the ice cream sandwich. I felt like I had done something reprehensible and needed to atone for it.
Luckily, I was able to distract myself long enough to keep myself from cutting (partly by doing this picture).
a2eternity 
I’ve found that art really does help reduce anxiety, urges to cut, etc… I can really relate to this post. Thank you for sharing!
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Small steps….proud of you ❤
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I drink water and I tell myself that it is diluting the food. I think drawing a picture is great.
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A2!! First, I am so incredibly glad you were resourceful enough to work your way out if this by drawing that picture. You scared the freakin’ defecation out of me till I got to where you didn’t cut. You see, My oldest daughter was a cutter. She hid that for a long time, which wasn’t hard to do away at school. The first time I saw the scars I felt gut-punched.
I’m VERY GLAD you posted this!! Getting it out and documenting this success is vital for you! Consider my reaction a measure of how much I want to support your recovery, how much you are in my prayers!!
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As a former cutter, the picture was very hard for me to see, but I am so very glad that you were able to distract and not cut. Every single day, you get stronger and stronger. I am so proud of you xx
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Im sorry you felt you had to cut, but i know exactly how you feel. Its like evrytime I take amouthful of food, i feel like that should be one cut
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Kudos for not going through with what ed was telling you to do. That takes a lot of strength. Stay strong in Christ. God bless.
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This picture is powerful and oh so accurate of the emotions behind it.
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