My psychiatrist wants me to start keeping an art journal of my eating disorder behavior urges. Today I’ve been wanting to restrict, so I tried to put it into a picture. On the left side is a body surrounded by spiky red and black lines. The red line is a deep self-hatred for my body that entirely encompasses me. The black like is the oppressive feeling the self-hatred gives me. The black arrows signify how the lines feel like they’re closing in on me. The dotted arrow shows that these feelings lead me to the thought of restriction and that I shouldn’t eat. I want my body to go away and the only way I know to make that happen is to stop eating.
Mar13
Awesome symbolism! What a cool idea keeping an art journal. As they say… a picture is worth a thousand words.
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I agree Lizzy
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EVERYTHING YOU EVER WRITE IS SO RELATABLE! I started my blog because I didn’t know how else to explain my mental illnesses to my family and friends. I figured that one day, when I was ready, I’d just let them read my blog. But geez do I relate to you! Would you be okay if I shared your blog with people in my life who I’d want to share my experiences with? Thanks for writing!!!
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No, go ahead.
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What a great idea your therapist has. We all express ourselves in different ways. An art journal is a great idea. I really enjoy your posts and have a lot of admiration for you .You are a fighter 🙂 x
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Thank you
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I love to use journaling as a way to understand myself. Great tool actually.
And your very expressive with your drawing.
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For the record, I would miss the heck out of you if your body went away. I am so very glad to have you in my life, even in blog format. You inspire and uplift me and I am grateful xx
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Thank you so much. That means a lot to me.
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Amen to that xx
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This is great! Hope it helps.. 🙂
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What a great and insightful drawing. I hope it helped you in some way to do this.
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This is amazing. This is absolutely amazing. I’m so, so sorry that you are suffering like this, and I sometimes want to tear your brain apart, but the way your turn this into art and into expression is inspiring.
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Aww, thank you
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Your art is really powerful. You have a talent there I think. You make a really clear representation of complicated, difficult emotions. I can identify with some of these especially wishing your body and (for me) its needs would go away. Does it change how you feel at all when you draw what you’re going through? Sending big hugs and wishing you strength as you go along this path of recovery xxx
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It doesn’t change it, but it helps me deal with what I’m feeling.
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I’ve ben impressed with your artwork from the start. Keeping an art journal is a great idea for you in particular. It’s fantastic that you are remaining engaged and committed to your recovery!
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Thanks!
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Hey! Quick question… Are you still able to see my blog posts? I changed my site address the other day and I’m not sure if it’s visible now 😔
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Yeah, I can see your posts!
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Thank you so much ☺️
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I Love the symbolism. Wish I could express myself that creatively! I hope it helps you!
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Thanks for the Like on my recent post. And an art journal is a fabulous idea. Sometimes, a picture really is worth a lot more than a thousand words!
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An art journal is really great. I have something similar, where on the back on the picture I write what I was thinking, feeling, what things represent, etc.
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I love that you are keeping up with the art!! Art therapy can be really beneficial and for you it seems to really connect on a level that’s helpful for expression!! Annnnd it helps that you’re good!! ;]
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Thanks! I don’t think I’m good, but I appreciate the compliment
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Stop it!!! Cause you are!! But all artists hate their own artwork! ;]
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Art is a wonderful therapy. Keep going! Hope you get better one day, the sooner the better. XOXO
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