“Love After Love”
by Derek WalcottThe time will come
when, with elation
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror
and each will smile at the other’s welcome,and say, sit here. Eat.
You will love again the stranger who was your self.
Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved youall your life, whom you ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.
Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,the photographs, the desperate notes,
peel your own image from the mirror.
Sit. Feast on your life.
We watched a youtube video by Jon Kabat-Zinn in treatment tonight and he closed with this poem. It really touched me. It seems like a poem about eating disorder recovery in so many ways.
Tonight we also did meal planning. My nutritionist doesn’t seem to think I should be eating the same breakfast, same lunch, same dinner every day. So, we planned out some different meals. We have a sheet for a week’s worth of meals, but I only got through 3 days of meals. I am supposed to finish on my own. I also learned that my breakfasts and lunches weren’t meeting my meal plan. Oops! Well, I know how to fix them now.
In other news, I booked plane tickets to visit southern California in May and my hotel room for a trip to Albuquerque in April!
Sounds like you had a very good evening at treatment! The poem is beautiful.
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Agreed x
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Beautiful poem. Easy to work out too 😀 . I’m so happy things are going a bit better for you. Let’s hope you continue on this path. I wish I could climb in your suitcase and come with you to California and the other place I need to google. xx
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That is a beautiful poem! Thanks for sharing it with us! You sound very engaged in your process; having an “oops” on your meal plan and then simply saying you know how to fix it. Simple. That sounds like someone who is well on her way, so good for you.
When you go to southern California, will you be in Los Angeles? There’s a great lounge there I could point you to; a fun pianist/vocalist. Let me know.
Keep doing great!
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I will be near LA and will probably make a day of LA. Let me know where you’re thinking of!
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A very good friend of mine, Rick Michael, plays at the lounge of the Omni hotel in downtown. He sang solo for Leonard Bernstein in Mass, which opened the Kennedy Center in DC (boy soprano). Attended New England Conservatory of music in Boston, where they called him The Wiz because he has perfect pitch; can identify any tone by ear. Great guy, talented. I think you’d enjoy it. Plus, you can freak him out and tell him all this stuff before you tell him you know me. Tee-hee!
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Beautiful! Absolutely beautiful!
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Disneyland?!?! I’m going in May!!
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When in May?
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Beginning! First week. Or is that second week…. First full week
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I’ll be there around that time too!
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Stop it!!!!!
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Wouldn’t it be neat if we were there on the same day?
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YES and I would even feel like we might have to possibly meet mayyyybe? ☺️
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Yessss
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Ummm email me?!?!
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Done
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Your trip sounds like it will be super fun! And that’s a lovely poem.
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