I went to bed early last night. Partly because I was up all weekend playing video games and drinking with my brothers, and partly because I just didn’t know what else to do. Today, I should be working on school, but I’m not. This afternoon I should be going to treatment, but I don’t want to. I could be knitting, but I just don’t have the motivation for anything. I barely got through a shower. And I had to really work up to taking it. And only because I knew I actually can’t skip treatment tonight because it could jeopardize my insurance coverage. If I wasn’t going anywhere (like I want) I wouldn’t have showered. I stayed in bed 2 hours late. I haven’t eaten today. I’m considering taking a nap, just to pass time.
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I have no motivation to exercise even though I should because I feel better doing it. Taking a nap sounds wonderful.
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Ugh story of my life at the moment! I have no motivation for anything either, everything I do literally takes all my willpower. I hope you fond where you put your motivation soon, you certainly need it at this point in your life. Good on you for still going to treatment 😊
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Can certainly relate to that. Ignoring life and responsibilities is basically my daily routine now. Do I have a report due in 2 days? Yes. Have I started it at any point in the last 4 weeks? Nope. Maybe I will tomorrow, we will see. I really admire that you were able to make yourself do what you need to do, you’re a better person than me.
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I haven’t worked on anything school related. And I probably won’t even though I have something due today. It’s going to take all the little motivation I’ve mustered to get myself to treatment.
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School work isn’t everything though. You feeling better should be the highest priority, and if that means not doing school work then I say it’s not the end of the world
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Yes for both of you your health is much more important than any other deadlines and when therapy and staying well takes everything you have that has to come first xx
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I’m sorry love. Sending hugs and praying for u. Hope u feel better. I know it seems like a mission but getting out will do you good and try get some yoga in it always make me feel better xxxx
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I know how you feel. I’ve been putting off school work as well. I haven’t been motivated to do anything but sit around. I keep telling myself that I can start doing other things once I get this work done, but it doesn’t seem to help at all. I don’t know about you, but even when I’m in a “better” mood, I find that I’m more productive on certain days of the week. It’s actually kinda weird. Wednesdays and Fridays are good for me. Not sure what that’s about. I hope that you find a way to get your school “mojo” back. I spoke with my BFF/Mentor today and I’m being more productive than I’ve been in a while. Maybe talking to someone who just “gets you” may help.
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TIME TO CHILL!
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been there, done that… and still do
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it’s so hard to kick yourself in the butt when you have low motivation. I’ve been there. I applaud you for getting in the shower, number one, and going to treatment, number two! You don’t have to do everything in one day. The one thing you do matters more than a few other things you didn’t.
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I can relate… I have barely got out of bed for a week. 😞
Admittedly having a shower does make me feel a tad more with it – even if I’m not going anywhere – but gosh is it easy to not.
Well done for sticking with your treatment. 🙂
Miss P
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Sometimes I feel the same way when I have to see my shrink, I just feel like not going. But after talking with him, I leave his office feeling like if a thousand pounds were lifted off of me.
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It’s not easy at all to help ourselves. But it’s got to be done. I’m not exactly sure where we find the strength to do things but it’s there so reach deep and know you’ve got this. Good luck!
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I definitely have those days. Sometimes, though, I think I need them. I’m glad you ended up having a shower – somehow I always feel better when I do. Treatment is important 🙂
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I admire you so much for keeping going. I know what it’s like being that tired. And toy probably do need a lot of rest. It’s tiring going through therapy. You’re worth the fight. Well done keeping going through the struggle. Xx
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Being tired is so hard! I’m feeling the same way. Maybe it’s time to bust out some bath bombs and just be kind to yourself. You deserve it. What you’re doing takes so much energy!
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I hope things turn up. Maybe you’ll feel better after treatment?
-Ashley
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