My intake assessment for the eating disorder clinic is tomorrow. I’m nervous as heck.
Since it’s tomorrow, I thought it’s probably time I should tell someone in my life that I’m seeking treatment, so I told my mom. It was HARD. I told her I had something I needed to tell her, but then it took a good 5 minutes before I could work up the courage to actually tell her what’s going on. I cried.
My mom said she suspected I was struggling, but wasn’t sure. She said she’s glad I’m seeking treatment.
I don’t like talking about myself with people. I don’t like telling people I’m going into treatment. It’s hard and uncomfortable. I think I’ll hold off telling anyone else until I know whether or not I’ll be admitted.
a2eternity 
The nice thing about telling people (assuming they’re supportive and a healthy influence for you) is that they can help you REGARDLESS if you’re admitted. 🙂
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I hope your assessment goes well. And well done for talking to your mom, I know it can be so hard to open up about these things.
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I hear you! It feels like weakness, magnified by society’s judgmental (and ignorant) attitude to eating disorders, But seeking help and support takes more guts than they will ever know. Be proud of yourself!
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I didn’t tell my mother until a week before I was going inpatient but once people in my life started finding out it made this so much easier . Good luck Hun
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You’re taking a huge brave step! There is a beautiful, healthy, happy life just waiting for you outside of the bathroom! I pray you have great providers and all the support you need. Recovery is worth it. Keep sharing!
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So brave and courageous!
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You inspiring lady. Go with a an open mind xxxx
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Well done. That’s huge. You have taken a really hard step in doing that. Most of the time I found it impossible to ask anyone for help when I was in the grip of bulimia and/or anorexia. I couldn’t even acknowledge the problem. It is really hard to say it and hard to trust anyone enough to tell them you’re seeking help. I imagine it makes you feel scared and vulnerable. Not only have you taken all the steps you can to get help and treatment you’ve dared to tell someone important to you about it. I am praying for you today as you have your intake appointment and really hope both this and your mum knowing a bit of your situation will be things that strengthen you and enable you to follow the path of recovery. Big hugs.
Ginny xx
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It takes a lot of courage to seek help. Thank you for sharing your truth with us. It’s beautiful though painful.
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Good luck 😀. Nice one for telling your mom, that must have been hard but it’s good to let those close to you have the opportunity to support you when you need it most. X
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This illness gains strength by isolating you. You help bring it down by not letting it hide. Hugs.
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