I didn’t skip therapy today. I wanted to, but I didn’t. It went ok. She challenged me to pick one day this week to not use laxatives. I cried when I accepted, but I did accept.
I also saw my rheumatologist today. She’s pleased with my progress, with how the meds I’m on are helping my rheumatoid arthritis. She did suggest switching one to an injection, but is going to leave it as a pill for now. Thank goodness!! I also got labs done like every time I see her. I was stabbed in my arm, where they didn’t get anything, and then in my wrist, where they took several vials of blood. She also wants me back in physical therapy for my RA, which I look forward to. It’s like having a free (well, cheaper) personal trainer.
My laxative use has been on the rise lately, so it’s probably a good thing for me to take a day off this week. I’m just not looking forward to it.
a2eternity 
So glad you went! Keep it up. It’ll be hard, but you’re worth it! š
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you can do it. I started taking laxatives at 15 years old and I one day in 2009 I decided to stop swallowing 100 a day. The best thing I ever did. Yes. It was a painful for a while. I could go on and on.. My stomach blew up and nothing fitted me for a couple of weeks. I didn’t go near the scales. I didn’t dare. I started starving myself again and then found out I could have kids. I have a healthy bmi of 21-3 theses days. I still feel fat somedays but I am healthier. My teeth are ruined so I’m no raving beauty any more.
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People look at me and tell me I am thin! Maybe I have built up muscle by exercising every day. I know one thing -I never want to go through the pain I put myself through with laxatives. The cramps, the inability to hardly make it to the toilet because of the spasms. The bloated tummy. The scales going by water weight. Keep at it. It is a tough challenge but it is worth it. I would send you a photo to show you I’m not fat. I still have certain foods I won’t eat. my non safe foods. I like eating healthy. I’m also a snacker. I don’t do sit down meals unless it’s in a restaurant ( I can go to restaurants now) as long as they do a good cocktail. I personally think that if I wa told to miss one day and taper it down to nothing. I don’t think it would have worked for me. Completely throwing every single tablet out and refusing to look back worked. I don’t know how or why that specific point in my life but it did. I can be rather stubborn and wilful. I am not advising you to stop like I did. I am sure people will say their are health complications doing it the way I did but taking laxatives was already a health complication. That is the way I think. All or nothing. Classic eating disordered behaviour š I don’t want to sound patronising so I will only say this_ there is life beyond laxatives:)
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That’s good news! My friend has RA and she’s vegan. Do you think you would be able to eat a vegan diet? She says she feels great. I know eating anything is hard but maybe making a change might help. I’m sorry if this shows how ignorant I am about eating disorders. When you mentioned RA, it made me remember how a vegan diet helped.
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I have thyroid trouble and use prunes and ground flax to help keep me regular. I just read that using the squat position for bathroom duty helps also. Best wishes to you all.
For help in self-management I looking forward to the publication of my e-book, At Eden’s Gate: Whole Health and Well-Being through WestBow Press.
Evelyn
Here’s to your Health!
evelynmmaxwell.com
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