Coping

Yesterday, as you may know, was US Thanksgiving. Thanksgiving is hard for people with eating disorders, and it was hard for me.

Don’t get me wrong, there were many things I enjoyed. Seeing my family. Playing with my niece and nephew. Playing board games together. Sitting around and talking together.

But there were things that were hard. The large amounts of food. Eating in front of a large group of people. Listening to my sisters and brother-in-law talk about their diets and weight loss efforts. Feeling watched and judged while I ate. Feeling absolutely stuck.

I didn’t purge yesterday, but I did use a boat load of laxatives yesterday and again today.

This morning I ate 3 pieces of pie for breakfast, followed by a handful of laxatives.

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The Porcelain Doll on November 27, 2015 at 2:26 pm said:

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Still beautiful on November 27, 2015 at 3:50 pm said:

Aw I’m proud of you for not purging I know how hard that must have been for you! It’s rubbish that we have wonderful events like thanksgiving ruined by our eating disorders, it’s just not fair. I hope you can keep fighting lovely, stay strong💘

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Nivendra on November 28, 2015 at 5:50 am said:

Sounds difficult but also sounds like you have enormous strength!:)

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- abstemious2eternity on November 28, 2015 at 5:54 am said:
  
  Thank you
  
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ijustgetbored on November 28, 2015 at 9:51 pm said:

I’m glad you found some good moments and hope you can hold onto them.

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Cathy Lynn Brooks on November 30, 2015 at 10:10 am said:

I understand the overeating part (3 pieces of pie for breakfast) but not the purging. I wish you well on your journey.

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