Reflections on my Weekend


I spent my weekend with my brothers. For the most part, it was great. We play games, we drank vodka, we caroused, we enjoyed each other’s company.  The was only one down side.

As you may know, I was on a restrictive diet when I left for the weekend. While drunk, I ended up eating. I woke up the next morning, remembered eating a sandwich, and was suddenly filled with dark suicidal thoughts. You don’t know regret until your regret comes with the knowledge that you need and deserve to be dead because of the mistake you made.

Luckily the suicidal thoughts only lasted an hour or so, but it was a rough morning.

So, tomorrow, I am starting the diet over and it will be a fasting day.


7 responses »

  1. I need to let ou know that Nobody Needs or deserves to be dead from a mistake. Everyone makes them, and I am so glad that you pushed ahead. I understand hob bad you must have felt…but remember, you deserve so many good things. I am proud of you for fighting through. You are being Heard!

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  2. I’m with mschrysalis. Be kind to yourself. You drank, you ate, you felt suicidal. Food is not the enemy. Love yourself.

    FYI my blog is now under the website Looking forward to seeing you there.

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  3. Hi there, new follower. Be patient with yourself. We all eat way more than we intend to when we’re drunk. Its actually one of the reasons why I don’t drink very often.
    You’re strong though and got through your thoughts. Progress!!
    Feel free to follow back.

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