Up again all night


But this time, it was due to the laxatives. Racing heart, shaking limbs, cramps, nausea, frequent trips to the bathroom. I hadn’t forgotten about these, but I had forgotten how much I disliked the feeling. Yet, I don’t want to stop taking the laxatives. I feel dizzy, but I feel clean. I am dehydrated, but I am empty. I feel powerful again. High on life. I have missed this. I feel weak and it proves that I am strong.

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  1. Being weak does not prove you are strong. Being strong proves you are strong. Stop taking the laxatives. You are an actually strong, beautiful, intelligent woman, and you know that this high is not worth the damage it wreaks. Email me if you want additional support: laurietopin@gmail.com

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