I finished day two of PHP, but it was more like day one because I spent most of yesterday in the ER instead of treatment. I met with most of the members of my treatment team today. I also ate 2 meals and 2 snacks there. Those were hard.
It felt like we were eating all day long. I cried several times today.
I felt so alone and out of place today. I also felt so crowded. I just wanted to be alone, but I can’t get alone during my treatment day.
I feel like there’s so much I want to say, but none of the words will come to the surface where I can reach them.
I’m exhausted, I’m full, and I’m drained.