I have a couple dozen cuts on my wrist at various stages of healing. Some are fresh.
I’ve never able to cut my wrists deep enough to kill myself. I’ve always been too scared.
However, lately I’ve been determined. Iv been working my way up to it, getting deeper each time.
I wonder how long it will be before I can do it.
a2eternity 
I know you feel like this is the only decision left, but you have so many years left to live. I’m not saying life is perfect, but there’s moments you’re not going to want to miss. I know the pain. I know the urge. You are not alone. Stay strong❤️
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This isn’t your only option. Please reach out in real life if that’s where your thoughts keep taking you. “the darkness doesn’t last forever, dawn always comes”
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But what if the dawn hasn’t come for over 20 years?
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There has to have been some cracks of light. These are what you hold onto while the darkness engulfs you. If surviving now is all you can do then just grit your teeth and hang on in there. 13 years ago I thought nothing would ever change and that I couldn’t live with how awful I felt and that suicide was the only option but things did eventually changed, I changed. I still have some really sh**ty days/ months but there has been a lot of lovey life in between that time. Please just hang on in there xxx
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Clicking ‘like’seems the entirely wrong message to be sending you but just shoqing that I have taken the time to read your post.
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I really appreciate it
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