The height of discomfort

• Large box of Lucky Charms
• Bag of baby carrots
• hummus
• Tub of macaroni salad
• 3 packages of Peeps

This is the food I had in my cart today while waiting in line at the register when a commercial came on for binge eating disorder.

I have since binge and purged all of it, but the discomfort remains. The whole time it was playing, I could feel people’s eyes on me, wondering, judging, watching me squirm.

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Fear and determination

I have a couple dozen cuts on my wrist at various stages of healing. Some are fresh.

I’ve never  able to cut my wrists deep enough to kill myself. I’ve always been too scared. 

However, lately I’ve been determined. Iv been working my way up to it, getting deeper each time. 

I wonder how long it will be before I can do it.