I have an intake assessment call with an eating disorder treatment facility on Tuesday.
I have no idea whether I’ll get into one of their programs. I really don’t know what to expect at all. I’m very nervous, slightly freaking out. But I’m ready to give recovery another go. I have realized I really do want a future without all of this, and I am ready to fight for it.
In the last week, I have binged and purged for 10 hours straight before passing out on my bedroom floor, and I’ve been horribly ill from overdosing on laxatives to the point of uncontrollable vomiting. This is completely out of control and I need to change something.
So here’s hoping.