You may have seen by now that I hate platitudes, and find them more frustrating and patronizing than helpful.
This was posted on someone’s Facebook wall just now.
This is one of those sayings that sounds so nice and encouraging when you’re the one saying it it. However, as someone who’s been on the receiving end, I have never figured out what “the miracle” is.
I have struggled with depression most of my life and suicidal tendencies for about 2 decades. I have given up, or been close to giving up dozens of times. I have quit, and I have been ready to quit. I have attempted suicide, and I have longed for death. I have had long, hard nights where I KNEW I couldn’t keep going and I didn’t know how to hang on anymore.
I can tell you that not ONCE after any of these points have I experienced “the miracle” that is supposed to happen after. There is no wake up the next morning and things are miraculously better. There is no sudden epiphany that makes everything make sense and all the pain and suffering “worth it”.
My singular goal for tonight, this last day of 2014, was to not spend it in the ER like I did last New Year’s Eve. When a friend asked me what my plans were, that’s what I told her.
I am struggling, and I am hanging on for now, and I am trying to make the right choices. But telling me that “the miracle” is right around the corner is not helpful to me. It kind of just makes me want to slap you and tell you that you haven’t got a clue.
I’m sure I sound cynical. I’m sure I sound mean-spirited. I’m sure I sound bitter. However, when you deal with people telling you the same useless phrases over and over for years, it just gets old.
Not cynical at all, just truthful.
Take care of you.
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I hate platitudes, too. Pretty, but useless. I’ve spent the last hour reading through your posts, and crying for your deeply wounded heart. I wonder, what happened that made you want to disappear? It must have been stinking awful. I’m so sorry for that.
While this will come across as a platitude, I do not mean it thus: I am asking Papa to make this the year of breakthrough for you. No one should have to go through life so broken. Inner healing is possible – I am walking proof of this truth.
Enclosed in this little note is the warmest hug I could send. I hope it touches your heart at least a tiny bit. We need you – and what you’ve been given for the rest of us. I can’t wait until the shackles fall away and you’re free to be the beautiful person that’s hiding deep within. ❤
With all my love,
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