But I’m Scared…

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All I can see are they.

The blue veins of life…of death…

I have the blade in my hand, ready.

But I am scared.

I want to, but I can’t bring myself to.

The finality.

Tonight, I am afraid of the finality of it.

Other times, I long for that.

I crave it. I need it.

But tonight, I am scared.

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  1. I am glad you’re afraid. Taking your own life is something to be very afraid of. I know sometimes you want that more than anything, but the fact that you don’t always want it should indicate that maybe it’s too drastic of a solution. I have been where you are. I have attempted suicide twice. Neither were fun experiences, nor do I wish to repeat them. I hope more than anything that you are able to reach out to someone you love and find a way to get some help. Reach out to me over email, I’m here. You are Loved, my dear. This is not the answer to the pain you are experiencing.

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