Last Night Gus


Last night I took half a bottle of effexor.

Last night I couldn’t sleep because of the pain.

Last night I was so nauseous I wanted to tear out my stomach.

This morning the pain had subsided substantially, but I was still nauseous, and with that came dizziness, shaking, weakness, blurred vision, fatigue, and so much more.

I’m too sick to eat, and even sipping liquids are hard.

I don’t know what I was trying to accomplish. Whatever it was, I don’t think I succeeded.

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  1. My heart aches reading this. I just want you to know you are not alone. I have taken meds before (perhaps not that level of overdose, but some) with no real intention – maybe feeling a bit suicidal, but not calling it a suicide attempt – maybe just wanting to numb out – maybe too numb to think about why, only to think somehow that it’s a good idea. I have been where you are and all I can think to do is offer you positive thoughts and many warm hugs. You are Loved.
    I hope the side effects wear off soon. I would love if you would consider seeing a doctor to make sure you’re okay, but I guess with an overdose like that, if you’re still okay now, you’ll be okay in the long run. But still, seeing a doctor might be a good idea…
    Anyways, I’ll stop mothering you. But please reach out if you need me. You can reach me at, and if you get to me there, I’ll give you my phone number so you can reach me anytime.
    Sending love your way.

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