What do you do when you’re a train wreck?
What do you do when you sit in a room of people playing Rock Band 3, all enjoying themselves, and you feel absolutely alone?
What do you do when all you want is to be alone, cut, and binge and purge, and who knows what else?
What do you do when you just want to talk to someone about how your life is falling to pieces, and you mentally go through the list of all the people you know, and none of them are people you feel you can tell?
What do you do when you have company from out of state and you just wish they would go home so you can fall apart with some semblance of dignity?
What do you do when you can’t keep from crying, no matter what you try?
What do you do when everywhere you turn for help tells you to go screw yourself?
What do you do when life just doesn’t seem worth it?
What do you do when you hate yourself more than you could possibly hate anyone, including people who do horrible things to other people?
What do you do when you don’t know how to keep going, but don’t know how to stop?
What do you do when it feels like you’re actually going insane?
What do you do when you wish tomorrow would never come?
What do you do when you can’t even get through a single day without some kind of meltdown or mental breakdown?
What do you do when you have all the questions but no one has the answers?
What do you do when you are the train and you can see you’re about to derail, but you just can’t do anything about it?
What do you do once you finally derail?
What do you do?
Does it even matter?
Reblogged this on Daughter of Israel and commented:
I wouldn’t know how to say it better.
So know, at least, you’re not alone.
That is when I get a therapist. I hope you have one.
No one will see me
Really? Because of insurance issues? Aren’t you supposed to start the outpatient treatment soon (I forget the correct name of it)? I am so sorry.
No, not because of insurance. They just won’t see me.
I am so sorry, that is just not right.
This is exactly how I feel on a daily basis, it sucks!! I’m so sorry that you feel like this, I wouldn’t wish it on anyone… hang in there and stay strong xx