I can’t even get into treatment

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After finding out that I am not actually starting PHP, next week or otherwise, I spent many hours binging and purging and trying to numb myself. It hasn’t been very successful.

I feel like such a failure. I failed at getting into treatment. I failed at being sick enough to make anyone take interest. I failed at being thin enough for anyone’s concern. I failed, I fail, I will fail. That’s all I do.

I will die fat and a failure.

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  1. The most triggering thing has to be being told your not sick enough to get treatment, my therapist told me this and all I could think was okay great, watch me get sicker. so unfair,

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