On Tuesday, we talked about support and how to choose the right support people for different levels of support.
That night, I also opened up to the other people in my treatment group about how I’ve been really struggling with self-harm and suicidal thoughts. That was really hard for me, but not nearly as hard as what I did next.
I asked for support. I asked if they would each take a take and do something with me on their day, whether it’s get together for lunch for that accountability, or just hang out for a couple hours.
I expected maybe one or two people to be willing. I expected no one to be enthused about the idea.
To my great surprise, they all seemed to really like the idea.
Yesterday, I spent a few hours with E. She and I drove around downtown, she’s new to the area (she came here from out of state for treatment) and I showed her all the fun attractions and art around town. Then, we went to a used bookstore I love; she also loves books. I had a great time.
Today, S and I had a picnic in the park and then spent 4 hours talking. We both ended up sun burned. Neither of us thought to think of the sun. It’s been winter so long.
Tomorrow, I’ll be writing my final essay of the term. All day.
Saturday, I’m going to a wildlife reserve with A. I’m excited and nervous about that. Not because of the animals, but because I have had a migraine for about a week straight and my fibromyalgia has been acting up and I’m just not sure I’ll be up to it.
The combination of giving up my self-harm items, and meeting with someone from treatment every day has really helped me.
I’ve been doing pretty well at following my meal plan. At least for meals. I’m not eating the snacks yet, but I’m overwhelmed with just the meals still.
Now I just need to cut out the binging and purging.
My review is tomorrow, I really hope my insurance approves more time.
Congrats!!! It looks like you are making great progress!!! May you continue to do so! God bless!
Thank you ❤
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WOW!!! That is huuuuggeee!!! I’m so proud of you, takes a lot of courage. 😉
Thank you so much
Woohoo!!!!! This is so encouraging to hear! Progress is being made – and way to take the initiative on asking for help! I’m so bad at that, but every time I bring myself to do so, I get great responses. Something we all need to remember as we struggle. 🙂 xx
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It’s so hard in the moment to both remember and to have the courage to do.
Definitely agree. I’m pretty alone in recovery, and I don’t know anyone else with an eating disorder personally, so I rarely ask for help. I write that as encouragement to myself as well as to everyone reading. ❤
Well, I’m here for you anytime. ❤
Thanks! ❤ And vice versa.
Awww! I wish I had such a diary! Sounds lovely! Would be nice to see photos of these nice places you’ve gone! Welldone on replacing your SH items! I hope that one day I’ll be able to provide help in this way. I blogged my feelings about providing support from the other side of the table: http://wp.me/p3aQrS-N8 I wonder what you might think! I’m glad your sticking to your plan! Keep it up and keep us posted! I enjoy your posts! 🙂
I want to thank you for liking a post of mine on http://www.bipolarlessons.com
I have read many of your posts and I am glad you are making progress. Reaching out for support is really great! I have to say that I do not have the courage that you have to ask for that kind of help (fear of rejection) so I mostly get my support from therapy and support groups. But actually making that step to include people that I met in support groups into my life as friends is hard for me as my entire life I have waited for people to come to me instead.
I think you are a good inspiration (even if you do not think so) to others so keep up the good work!
Thank you so much. ❤