So guess who went on an impromptu date tonight?
I met a guy a few days ago and we’ve been talking via email, phone, and text. Then, this evening around 7pm, he asks if I want to go get dinner.
I almost said no, but something in me really wanted to go. I hadn’t showered today, so I said yes, and hopped in the shower.
I was freaking out beforehand. Like all out panic attack. Eating. With a near stranger. And I had no idea where we were getting dinner.
However, I really enjoyed myself.
That’s not to say it wasn’t hard to eat dinner, or that I didn’t have a lot of ED-related thoughts, but I did have fun.
This also means I ate 3 meals today. Not quite as much as my meal plan would have me eat, but still, 3 meals.
I’m struggling right now with wanting to purge, even though it’s been a bit since dinner. I’m really overwhelmed with the amount of food I’ve consumed today.
I’m going to go off and distract myself now.
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